MM: MeSha Moments

  The need to be accepted is an unnecessary feat. To act like something or someone you are not takes a lot of false notions as well as a web of continuous lying. We all know the saying of lies catching up to you. One skipped detail or an inconsistent story line could expose your true being. Eventually your rein of false bravado will meet its end. The charade that you put on will cause your horns to show, hating yourself and everyone else, you lash out, your fangs water and, unbeknownst to you, the "sheep" now see who you really are. So you retreat, hoping that if you stay away from the flock, no one will notice. I hate to tell you but your wool fell off long ago and that ratty, gray mane is out. The time is now for you to enter the field, own your faults and maybe you will be forgiven. But what made you put on the wool coat in the first place?  

There is a road you will have to take alone. This walk is for your sanity and no one else's. As much as you want company on this journey, no one seems to fit the bill so far. Over the years, you have given your love and time to potential suitors. While the beginning seems so unimaginable and surreal for you to be blessed with this bliss,  the end result remains the same. The love does not feel the same or there is a selfish person draining you of energy, sure that you will be waiting on the shelf collecting dust. As with all silver comes the tarnish and either it is cleaned and renewed or sold to the next customer to make new again. But there is just that process of leaving your past buyer. Did he or she appreciate you once? And if so, why not now? Why allow you to have a feeling of being worthless in their lives? Now comes your walk. It is the time you spend mending yourself. And what seems like loneliness is only your path that you must walk...ALONE. There is a difference...

Do freaks cum out at night? Or do they dare linger in the kitchen with the pots and pans? Many assume that the freaky women are less tasteful or not deemed to be "wifey material". Are they too busy lurking for that perfect penis to know or be concerned with the task of cooking and cleaning? If this is the case, should we also assume that your average female homebody who prides herself in culinary delight, a working woman's 9 to 5, tending to the children and cleaning her home does not engage in the most erotic of sexual acts and favors? Speaking from both sides of the fence, it has come to my attention that "you are welcomed as you enter". Now, don't assume that if you enter in a sexual manner, that you will be treated as street puntang (please be aware that spell check did not disagree) nor disrespected or you may not receive that wifey material treatment, whatever the hell that is. Then turn the tables. When you show your wifely duties in the begi...

What does it mean? It sounds great to HEAR when someone wants to HELP you. The load of bullshit on my plate that can be relieved by just a little bit of... HELP. If someone HELPS, that means that I don't have to do it. HELP! Help can be a wonderful thing if given by the right people... But when I have heard the word HELP in the past of an unknown party and the offering of someone's HELP is accepted, it always goes wrong. This HELP comes with a tag of intentions that are not revealed until it's too late. You've accepted the HELP, the terms were agreed, the HELP is given and a bunch of blood-soaked marbles come rolling out of the helper's pockets ie. HIDDEN AGENDAS! It is my advice and experience to avoid this random HELP from a person you don't know and have never met. Things can go real wrong real fast. Keep in mind that everyone deserves a shot at being on the winning team and maybe their intentions are greater than you could ever imagine, but are y...

In the beginning, there is love, care, tenderness and understanding. The relationship is fresh and new. As the beginning grows into a middle, a bond has been secured and the loyalty is visible. But as the end comes near, a certain stale taste lingers on the tongue and the appreciation has fizzled away. It's time to say goodbye. You will see what I did here when I explain further and you read on... Instead of hurting someone's feelings, you must force their hand to break the seal of a bottle formed. The bull is governed by the red fabric and made to go a different route. But this was not a sexual relationship. It was a bond in business! LET GO! -Viva Ze Bool

You would think that it all begins in a room, the pile of stuff, the junk you forgot to clean, the mess you made. Or is it the mess you allowed others to make, after parties, after dinners, after conversations? Either way, you have to stop and clean it up before you move on to something else. You have to clear away anything that doesn't belong or doesn't belong to you.... But are we still talking about a ROOM? Clutter starts in your mind but it can expel or spill over into a room, leaving it dirty and hard to focus on what you need to do. It is very difficult to clean and organize items in your life if your mind is running 8 different ways and 3 types of crazy. Your clutter may have began long ago or recently so let me hand you a broom and dust pan, maybe a mop? Let's think back...After the parties were toxic people who made their way into your personal space and somehow found a common ground and a reason to stick around. When dinner was over, their were no dishes,...

TIME. Many of us use the word TIME out of context. TIME... Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock... We treat time as if it doesn't exist in the lives of others until it is YOUR time that is being utilized. We fail to take into account the the time is others is just as, if not more, valuable than yours. TIME. Did you schedule a time or made a TIME COMMITMENT that you chose not to agree to or dedicate to keeping your word about that specified time? Or do you lead others to believe that they do not fit into your time or maybe they don't fit into your life. Be honest with people about TIME by just saying I DON'T WANT TO. I CAN'T DO THAT. I WILL NOT COMMIT DOING THIS OR THAT. Don't chose to blame things on TIME or create and invisible schedule to avoid assisting another. Just say NAW BITCH! I don't want to. But many of us will let TIME take the fall. Time is doing it's part in life just by committing to the hours and minutes of a clock, by adding those hours to create days,...

You've heard of the 'little white lie'? A little white lie is said to be a minor, polite or harmless lie. A white lie can be excused because it doesn't cause great harm. But we all know that those little lies can grow into bigger lies just to cover up the little lies... So what is A RED LIE? This type of lie falls into a different category and for some reason is found to be acceptable and tolerated....A red lie is a statement told with complete awareness that the other person knows the statement to be false. This type of lie is often told and accepted to avoid the fallout that might occur from dealing with reality. People are known to tell these lies, knowing their poker face is visible and hoping the other party believes the bullshit and to keep from hurting the other person while we sit, listen and accept but in our heads KNOW.... YOU ARE A LIAR!!!! Why do we not correct this behavior? well... to avoid hurting the other person? This has to stop. Here is ...

There is a code. Code of the streets. Code amongst men. Code in business. Even a code between companions. But what happened? Somewhere along the line and throughout the ages, the code got lost. Women became more street savvy and more apt to keep the code.... especially in SILENCE. In this day and time, men have become weak minded and ready to talk and chat and gossip. Have a tea party while you're at it motherfucker! It's as if the balls have not dropped so many men are still seeking approval. Conversations or sit downs should be considered sacred and confidential. Instead they turn into what should have been a public seminar because everyone knows what was said. The streets are now filled with snitches and gossipers. The pillow talk of the private bedrooms are being revealed. Even the contracts of business are a topic of discussion at random dinner tables. Who is loyal and who is worthy of my company? My work ethic? My love??? Why are women being made to keep the cod...

You can't turn a hoe into a housewife, as the saying goes. But who said she was a hoe? Many make the mistake of judging a woman based off of her clothes, freedom of speech or confidence with her sexuality. But in this day and time, these are the women that men are secretly looking for... You meet two women. Hopefully dating them at different intervals, which we all know damn well you are not, you find that one is reserved, conservative in her style of dress, professional in manner. Yet she's preserving that vagina like canned apples on a Winter shelf. The other, holding a different level of security in her sexual needs, is up front and honest about her intentions with you. She's professional in her business, sassy at the mouth, a lady in the streets and a freak in the sheets. They are both WOMEN regardless of their choice of how to address the dick! One just chooses not to waste time. This one is publicly judged but privately favored!  In some circumstances, men wou...

Your dependency on words is a downfall. Someone tells you they will and they don't. Someone says they can help and they can't. You trusted them and those words and look where it got you? You depended on these words that were told to you rather than depending on an ACTION! Words are NOTHING without that action that should follow. Now with those words that you so greatly depended on came a disappointment because you had your own plan of action to fulfill. You can talk until you're blue in the face about your goals and visions but no one seems to be listening... What you've learned is that no one gives a damn about YOUR GOALS and DREAMS because they are usually dead set on their own or they just don't have any! As a business owner, a brand, an artist and organization, you can't follow someone else because you have your own path. Followers end up on DEAD END STREETS. You didn't mean to become a follower, but assisting in someone else's dream while...

Take a look at your surroundings. Revisit the places you've gone. Converse with people you've spoken to. Do this in your mind. Did you notice something you didn't notice before? Did you see something wrong? Did I light bulb go off? ... or maybe you grew out of these things and are just now realizing they're too small for you to wear... in real life. The word anew means in a new or different, typically more positive way. We have already turned over a new leaf when we began that career or business venture, when we started going to school or relationship. You feel what the hell I'm saying? Now stay with me because this is where "shit" gets difficult. The problem is when you begin to outgrow your surroundings. Remember: Staying in the current will get you NOWHERE! It's very similar to a dog chasing it's own ass. What was new isn't new anymore and must be CHANGED or simply redone. Anew, means in a NEW WAY. So you turned over the new leaf,...

       So walked into one of my favorite stores and as many of you know, my hair is a bit bleached. Just did my lashes and eyebrows this A.M. I'm beautifully breathtaking and it took me YEARS to own that. My children, my 2 sons, are with me, the handsome little men that they are. I can feel EYES on me. Not just catching a glimpse, but gawking at me. As I look around. I catch the evil stare of a woman in line.... she then closes her eyes and turns her head because I don't want to accuse the big head bitch of rolling her eyes at me! And no,I didn't know her...        Now, if you like my look, speak on it because I do when I see a ravishing woman, just flawless bitch, I have to acknowledge her and tell her WHY I'm staring so effing hard. If you don't like my look.... BITCH DON'T LOOK!!! We as people have this little problem: If I don't have my look together, I must automatically hate the woman that does. We as women tend to find a look of our o...

Would you put up 10 Bands with me if I put up 10 Bands??? Get 8 other people to put up 10 Bands and throw the classiest event of a lifetime??? But after the event, invest again to do more events. Building bigger businesses for the community, your team, your family. Whether it be a venue or building for a conglomerate of small businesses or corporations, it would benefit everyone to come together. ...... The only problem is you risk being scammed by your own people. So build alone with an amount of money that is not ridiculously large, but big enough to keep your money train running on a straight track. You will have naysayers, debaters, negativity...... but the main thing to watch for is those who get close to you. Work from within? And dig your way out? WOW.... But remember this: some of your assets have a great deal of value. Bartering is not an option. Thank you child....... look at it as sort of trade. No, get that money!

You go through life, this particular chapter of what's supposed to be YOUR BOOK, and you come to a standstill.......     A piece of information is revealed and you begin to think. You think back. You think so far back that you have now pressed a rewind button in your brain. This button has caused a ripple of waves that creates an entirely new story. This story is now a Conspiracy Theory of what you think the cause of the situation was. Are you correct in your assumptions? Did you miss something? Or were you played the same way the machine was? Every machine that has a play button, fast forward and rewind? Now it's time for you to pause, decide where your stopping point is and then record over the bullshit to fix what was destroyed.... I let my tape ROCC til my tape POPPED!

I believe that many of us get caught up in the "HYPE" about weight, fashion, style....but most of all AGE. Many of us do this that are considered LATE for our time, or maybe YOU'RE TOO OLD to be doing etc...... But know this:  There is not an age CUTOFF for MUZIIQ! If you are GREAT, please continue to do so. There are artists older than Shaka Khan, but have unlimited talent in muziiq and... well... BARZ!!! Keep doing what you do though and know that you are saluted and appreciated for keeping HipHop, REAL HipHop alive and kicking.... .........but then you have THE WASHED UP RAPPER, they are not artists and can be in their 20's, but just DAMN WHACK AS HELL!!! They may have once been great or maybe just had that ONE HIT that we all remember as being so catchy lol, but in current times can't write a hit to save their life. And so they keep grinding out BAD MUZIIQ until eventually, they fade into the land of BUM AZZ RAPPERS, you know that dark place where Simb...

Why would I name myself after a woman who was a mistress to a married man? What reasoning do I have to pattern after a this "side chick" who was screamed on by the angry bitch in the hallway, better known as Karen Hill, an enraged wife who brought along her two young daughters to confront the WHORE IN 2R for sleeping with her husband, threatening to tell everyone in the building and even went so far as to call the superintendent??? I'm sorry, I've been the Karen Hill, catching my men cheating whilst I sat at home, alone with the children, wanting to go out, wanting to be adored by the man that loved me in the beginning. The REAL Janice Rossi, and I will spell her name correctly and give her the respect she deserved when talking about her, had no children, had no rings, had no husband, HAD NO TIES! But what she did have was a man every Friday night, a laced out apartment, money out of her ass and a boss that got his ass kicked for trying to fire her.  So allo...

As you can see, it has been quite a while. Slowly but surely, I am returning and putting my pieces back together. It may look as if my puzzle is falling apart, but no, it is coming back together quite nicely. The only thing that I need to be wary of....is people. People will strip away piece of your soul without you even realizing that you have lost yourself by giving so much of one self to others. Beware these beings, never making sure you stay sane and whole, but making sure you are giving them what they need to survive . You have what they cannot possibly attain, and so they eat at you like vultures in the night, taking away your......'pieces'. Well honey grab that puzzle glue and lay a strong and firm foundation for yourself FIRST before you help build someone else's. You're only using your own bricks........ ???

As a business woman, deals are made, contracts are signed, money exchanges hands. But when it has been discovered by the HNIC that it is a female running the operation, deals can go awfully sour. How a man can renege on a contract that was in the works for over a month is beyond me. Not only does the man go against what is said on the contract, but tries to get extra money out of the female because he believes he can pull a janky. Ladies, STAY SHARP! Refund you janky bastard. But the devious plans of a woman can shut down the entire operation of "The Janky Man"! I'mma punt your pussy ass back to Raleigh!!!!!! I don't sneak dis, so this one goes out to you: Buddy Row of Solar Lounge .... Kisses!

I've been watching you, wanting you needing someone like you in my life. Over the years, I've watched you grow and the accomplishments that you've made. I know you love strawberrii ice cream and vanilla Oreo cookies. You watch reruns of law and order, CSI Miami, Burn Notice, most of what TNT has to offer.You have a mole on your right breast and a frog that jumps around your house every night......... Are we getting the point here???? That man knows a little bit too much information. Keep him in your line of sight and in the meantime, get a restraining order, a 30-06 with the scope on it, a box of bullets, an axe and some booby traps just to make sure you're safe.